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Yellow bird flying
Gets shot in the wing
Good year for hunter
And Christmas parties
And I hate and I hate
And I hate and I hate
Elevator music
The way we fight
The way I'm left here silent

Oh these little earthquakes
Here we go again
These little earthquakes
Doesn't take much to rip us into pieces

We danced in graveyards
With vampires till dawn
We laughed in the faces of kings
Never afraid to burn
And I hate and I hate
And I hate and I hate
Disintegration
Watching us wither
Black winged roses that safely changed their color

Oh these little earthquakes
Here we go again
These little earthquakes
Doesn't take much to rip us into pieces

I can't reach you
I can't reach you
Give me life
Give me pain
Give me myself again

Oh these little earthquakes
Here we go again
These little earthquakes
Doesn't take much to rip us into pieces

...

That was Tori. Now for me.

Steve always says he knows when I've turned myself inside out with melancholia.
I listen to Tori Amos.
...
Such pain I can't stand it.
But I bring myself back to it again and again.
The chill goes right down my spine and bursts into flame.
Where did this pain come from I don't know
But I know
I'd rather feel this pain than the nothingness I could have
Fallen into
Back in Maryland. Lithium and severed veins
Tell the story of the Pain.
But I fought it out...and I won
Gaping Chasm.
Pain is weakness leaving the body?
See how strong I am. See the smile through
The Tears as I rip my body apart to give birth.
The blood is washed away...
And the next chapter of my Life
Opens it's pink blooming mouth.
Current Location:
in my head with a flashlight and baseball bat
Current Mood:
sad sad
Current Music:
rain, wind, and fairy chimes
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