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My Stars, it has been years. And I've just dropped 3 things off of my desk. Go me. Anyway, here I am with the last of the diet pepsi and not surprised at all that lying in bed 4 hours does not make sleep automatically appear within my grasp, on the contrary. Doctor says don't nap during the day. Hah, says I. How can one not nap when one only gets 3 hours of sleep, I ask. Doctor says, you don't nap, you will sleep. Hah, says I. I don't nap and still no sleep. Silly doctor.

It could be the not smoking. It's like coming off of heroin or something. Srsly. Not for the weak, this quitting thing. But I have it down. It kind of helps that I want to live. O, didn't I mention that I smoked? I'm sure I did. Just been so long since I've posted. Picked it up in Winter 09 with every intention to be social, seductive, random, Holly Golightly cigarette holder-type smoker. 6 Months and can't do w/o them. So now, when my own son, aged 7 and 3/4 asks me with all the earnestness at his command says 'Mommy can you at least TRY not to smoke?' And that is not an unreasonable thing to ask. Not like in X-Men when Bobby's mom says to him "Have you tried NOT being a mutant?" So. It's been one week and excellent results. Making your mind up firmly is the only way to go.

Of course...being almost deathly ill had quite a bit to do with it too. Strep throat then strange relapse fever kept me ill 17 days. 30 lbs lighter, enormous energy drained, and sickly pallid color against my copper locks. BUT. Ex-smoker. And got my flying mount today with my goblin, so yay me! Steve is shifting onto this other mmorpg called RIFT but my heart remains with WoW. Still so tired. So. Tired. But not sleepy. Rawrrr.

Miss my family. Haven't seen them since January. But strangely, don't have the hutzpah to carry off a trip right now, no matter how homesick or how much I long to smell the jasmine vines. Maybe when I'm better...

In other news, life goeth oneth. Need to get the dogs groomed and teeth cleaned, the car tuned up, start planning the youngling's 8th birthday. And start planning a garden! Yes, the snow is hopefully gone for good and warm lazy hazy days coming upon us. That backyard is a mess but I got a good book on what grows well in Western Nevada. Friend is having a baby this month; threw her a shower last month...which puts baby on the brain. Steve said once he gets going as a social worker in about a year or two after he is all done with school then we can make plans. Just think of it...a baby...*le sigh* Breastfeeding again...and that means getting off some meds I'm on right now. Yes, getting out of smoking and staying vegetarian and maybe building up my core more is just what I need to keep me busy, that and a garden...and coffee with Penny and Kathy...and mayhaps rereading my "Anne" books or finishing learning how to crochet...oooh making a baby blanket...maybe this time pink...*warm happy thoughts*

Ok I'm gonna go read some more with the flashlight. Hopefully Bailey isn't all sprawled out on the bed. My back hurts at the mere thought of moving him. I know he should be sleeping in his own bed but I just can't help it. I want to keep him little as long as I possibly can...it will be far too short a time before he's growing up and away from me. Sheeit, Kelsey's already 15. I got her when she was 6 though.
Ok this time I'm really going.
Good night.
It's good to be back.
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